8/09/2007

dream/convo w/ mrs. gray

--look in the mirror
--you collect ________ like pokemon cards
--he had a dream and got assassinated
--w/ roomate, go out to chill, end up at athletic center, girls bball game, tons of ppl, leaving in big mob, roomate says something, i say "yeah n", i look behind me, see him, tall/thin - puts hand on my shirt, fear getting taken out side and beaten up, deserve it?, he lets go, i follow him to sidewalk where hes working on project - civil rights, he asks me a couple questions, i try to explain, hes listening but my explanations feel inadequate, he is distant, i go back to my room, tell my roomates, they dont laught, they just stare at me, i wake up
-- tell dan - mlk
-- tell mrs gray - pokemon/mirror

8/05/2007

a crappy ramble

i don't want to leave saved shit on my computer. no one reads this.

She’s what they call “born again.” Her name is Mary. Mary rhymes with hairy, which is what she was before she was born again. Then she shaved. She also stopped drinking, and liking women, and having fun. She also started going to church, and talking to girls in the office about the cute boys from the moving pictures. All of our lives are moving pictures. How different the pictures can be at certain times in our lives is quite astounding.

7/30/2007

to grandmother's house we go

There she stood, my eighty-seven year old grandmother, a strong woman who during the past two years has been the victim of multiple strokes, a bout of shingles that has blinded her in her right eye, and the death of my grandfather; there she stood, in her pink sweater and black slacks, with her hands on each of my aunt's shoulders for support, ready to move over to her bed and get changed for the night. And while she stood there, it happened: she gased - and then laughed, and then we all laughed too with the humor of the past two years, and the love of many more. She buried her head into my aunts shoulders and staggered: relief - pure, ecstatic relief. This fart had been unlike any other. This fart hadn't been funny in the traditional sense. This fart had an 'x' factor. It had an element that only those that were there and those that had been through what they had been through could appreciate...wow, an explosion.

3/27/2006

hey trevor, nice tape job

I guess it's not like procrastination doesn't have any benefits
If you're lucky, you could end up with an album art collage.
PS. I wish I knew how to format this shiza better

3/14/2006

my yearbook caption

This is my first 2 post day in quite a while. Feels good.

Anyway, if I have any luck this caption will be under the picture of the most handsome and modest young gent in the 2006 Prep yearbook. I have pushed Lynch's patience to the breaking point, only time will tell whether or not I have an eagle underneath my name.

***

“Bitterness, recriminations, advice, morality, sadness – everything was behind him, and ahead of him was the ragged and ecstatic joy of pure being.”

-Jack Kerouac, On the Road

Thanks: To everyone, whether I appreciated you or not.

Ambition: To be a decent human being, content and fulfilled.

Activities: Young Republicans 1, 2, 3, Pres 4; Fencing 1, 2, 3, 4; Stage Crew 1, 2, 3; Greek and Latin Club 1, 2, 3, 4; National Honor Society 3, 4; Eagles Wings 3; Beverly House 1, 2, 3, 4; XBSS 3, 4; Sophomore Retreat Leader 3, 4; Philosophy Club 1, 2, 3, 4; SEA 3

i had to write it, the least you can do is read it

As our country spins fiscally out of control, I tackled the National Budget and Entitlement programs in my government paper. Considering how long it is, I figure it's be fair to include a disclaimer: The answer to all our problems isn't in there:

The Federal Budget and the Issue of Entitlements

Statement of Purpose: The purpose of writing this paper was to explore the debate over the federal budget, and more specifically entitlement programs. As entitlement and other social programs constitute a significant portion of the national budget every year, and they have recently come under scrutiny and suspicion, it is important to consider the possibility of making modifications, whether by streamlining them or finding another method to provide the services they offer to citizens.

The United States of America is the sole global superpower in the world today. Given the steady rate at which this world grows smaller everyday, this statement is even more significant now than it would have been only a hundred years ago. The ramifications of our actions have become an even bigger factor for politicians and people alike to consider as they make decisions. We continue to be a country to which the global community often turns for leadership and precedent. With this in mind, one must consider the debate over the national budget and entitlement programs, not only in terms of how they affect the average American citizen, but also in terms of how they influence the ever growing populous of the world outside our walls. The typical American has grown up with the notion that there is value and honor to being American. However, as we reap the benefits of the hard work and dedication of past generations, we must be weary of developing too intense of an adult friendly, carpe diem attitude and conscious of our responsibility to the future. As the budget deficit reaches into the trillions, one must consider fiscal policy with an objective eye, in order to save ourselves the humiliation that the bankruptcy of the nation would cause. There are problems in America, from the car factories of Detroit, to the plains of Kansas, to the beaches of Florida. How we interact and cope with these problems, in the face of skepticism over the lack of discretionary spending and an enormous military payroll, will influence astronomically the American legacy of the not-to-distant future.

Two of the more significant problems are the issues of medical benefits and of retirement. The mechanisms that have been put in to place to deal with the medical and retirement crises, such as Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid, are referred to as entitlement programs. These programs emerge every year from the budget process, a long and extensive journey.

This process begins every year on the first Monday of February, when the President presents his budget to the Congress, thus performing one of his most important duties. In addition to his proposal, each independent agency and cabinet department also submits its own, which will be assimilated into the final draft that will eventually surface months later. In April, both the House and the Senate present a budget resolution, which their respective budget committees have prepared. After a conference report has reconciled the differences between the two, the final budget resolution is voted on and eventually passed by way of a concurrent resolution (“US Budget Process”).

The budget, as noted before, contains many entitlement programs. These programs are also referred to as “mandatory” or “non-discretionary” programs, as oppose to those aspects of the budget that the Congress of the day gets to decide upon. Discretionary spending requires annual appropriation through corresponding legislation and is dealt with by the U.S. House Committee on Appropriations (“US Budget Process”). Unfortunately, since Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid have inflated, thus becoming notorious, this is only a small portion of the budget. After the finances necessary for these programs have been considered, and accepting the fact that the situation of the times usually calls for a large amount of military spending, in many cases the only economic changes left to make in Washington concern reforming tired policies, rather than creating, inventive new ones. Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid accounted for more than $1 trillion in the 2004 budget year, out of 2.2 trillion. “I think it’s absolutely essential and inevitable that we are going to reform those programs,” said Rudolph Penner, a senior fellow at the Urban Institute, a social issues research organization (“Fed Entitlement Programs More Costly”). Many people agree with this sentiment, but few know how to go about doing so. To better understand the three programs and the services they provide a brief overview is necessary.

The Social Security Administration (SSA) was first incarnated as the Social Security Board (SSB). It was a brainchild of President Roosevelt, who signed its inception into law on August 14, 1935 at 3:30 p.m. The Social Security Act began as an independent entity but soon became a sub-cabinet agency in 1939. In 1995, it returned full-circle to independent status. The first man to receive a benefit was Ernest Ackerman, in 1937. Three years later, in 1940, 222,448 people received benefits. In contrast, the 2003 program reached 47,038,486 people (“Social Security”). In theory, the program is designed to provide a monthly check of retirement or disability benefits to a covered person, or their spouse and children, in the event of their death. This grant is meant to be taken as an “addition” to their own retirement plans, a concept that has become distant to an American population with the lowest rate of savings of any industrialized nation in the world (It is estimated that the average person saves about one percent.). Social Security is funded through the Federal Insurance Contributions Act, which is a payroll tax. A pay roll tax is paid equally by the employee and the employer (Social Security Debate (US)).

Medicare first started to permeate during the Truman years, when he suggested a national health care plan. Although many were scared at the idea of “socialized medicine,” they did recognize the need to provide medical assistance for the social security participants in their efforts to stay healthy and happy. Before they knew it, President Lyndon Johnson was signing Medicare, along with its companion program Medicaid, into law. Part of his "Great Society," the American people had had thrust upon them two programs that took federal involvement in civilian life to an unprecedented high, and aided in the encouraging of government dependence by citizens (“Medical History”). Medicaid, which insures the indigent, aims especially to help those that cannot help themselves, but unfortunately, like many other benefit programs, is taken advantage of by those who can.

Now that the programs have been explained two of the more prevalent suggestions for solving them will be discussed. A column from The National Debt, which states, “Social security and Medicare are two of the biggest problems when it comes to cutting a budget,” understands well the dilemma that each side tries earnestly and honestly to tackle. The sentiment of the book, however, then leans towards the first option, reduction in funds, “Most people feel they are ‘entitled’ to these benefits and most balk when anyone suggests cutting them.” This view, one that is of particular stature in the public debate, epitomizes the beliefs of the first school of thought on this issue. This group maintains that streamlining the programs and spending the money to eliminate fraud is the best way to increase efficiently and free up more federal money for other programs, or to put towards the deficit. In contrast to this argument, and that of the book, is the view that we must keep entitlement programs exactly as they are, at least until a time comes when the government is able to lay more of the burden for the worker upon the corporation. First, this paper will discuss the prior.

The idea that the government should refrain from “intruding” into the lives of its citizens, that “that government is best which governs least,” is typically a conservative one. This version of reality, although some still maintain it is a significant force in modern culture, has really only been more of a superficial afterthought in the minds of most representatives since the New Deal. The sweeping changes of the presidency of Franklin D. Roosevelt changed forever the nature of government. Ever since then the government as buttress has been an accepted notion, the most socially and economically conservative of today being the most liberal of the past. All of this relates to the discussion of entitlements in the sense that it offers a certain degree of perspective, that those tending to favor independence on the part of business, and government reduction in terms of social programs are not also in favor of monarchies and no safety standards, ignorant to progress and smothered by antiquity. Mr. Henaghan, teacher and devout Republican, put their ideology into a few words: “The government must come up with a more stringent list of criteria that a person must meet to qualify for entitlements. To put it frankly: Are you ‘disabled?’ Or are you really disabled?”

This view stems from a sense of justice certain people feel for John Q. Citizen, as he struggles against inflated insurance costs and the possibility of harder conditions were he ever to be in need. The way to streamline the programs, and that is what must be done, is to eliminate those who are just along for the ride, those able to work and provide for themselves, but just not willing to do things that might not be their first choice of action had they all the advantages in the world. In terms more specifically of Social Security, the problem lies with under funding, spawned by the fact that the ratio of worker to benefactors has shrunk dramatically over the decades. The most important thing for the government to do, in the eyes of the first school, is to be responsible not for those who cling, but for those who do their honest-to-God best and are hurt by corruption and fraud. “Anyone caught perpetrating a fraud should be forever banned from receiving any government benefits,” lamented Mr. Henaghan. This party of people does not devote themselves to business, but rather believes that business cannot be the victim because it seems from the outside to be an impersonal entity. The truth is that, “forcing companies to bankroll pension plans or retirement forces many companies to go out of business and then the employee loses much more; not merely retirement and healthcare, but an income as well.” To boil it down: eliminate waste. The conservatives believe themselves to be asking merely for conservation, not for an obscene and weaselesque abandonment of the needy.

The second school of thought believes that the funding for entitlement programs should not be decreased at all. These people are the “most people” that The National Debt referred to, unwilling to make cutbacks for fear of compromising the common man. Mr. Britton used himself as an example of this type of person, “I would be completely against taking the entitlement programs that do exist and cutting back on entitlements…If you change the programs, where does that leave John Q?” This type of nobility stems from a strong belief that not only should there be a social contract, but also that it should do more than it is doing now. The social contract is that unspoken agreement between citizen and government that says that by giving up certain rights and paying certain taxes, citizens are ensured that the government will insure them. These people believe that the social contract is in horrible disrepair and that Washington needs to take more initiative, either by correcting the inefficiencies of the programs or by forcing business, by law, to carry more weight. These people would be very disappointed with the news presented in a December, 2005 article about the upcoming budget, printed by the Washington Post:

The budget measure, more than 700 pages long, would change
federal health care, student loan programs, pension insurance
and dozens of other programs to try to curb the growth of federal
entitlement spending that rises automatically according to set
funding formulas. The bill marks the first time in nearly a
decade that Congress has tackled such an effort (Weisman).

Due to the sensitive nature of the issue, politicians usually fear making adaptations to the programs. However, with the federal deficit reaching $8,278,662,378,891.09, people are finally getting motivated to make changes. While the Bush tax cuts have added some stimulation, they will not be enough to thrust us out of the red. The national debt has increased an average of 2.10 billion every day since September 30, 2005 and in a nation of 298 thousand and change, this has left each person with a share of the debt almost $28,000 strong (Hall). The second school of thought, traditionally more liberal, would like to see other areas of the budget downsized before social programs, and an increase in taxes to make up for the money we have lost due to a mistaken faith in trickledown economics over the past few decades. The trickledown, deficit spending theory became mainstream with President Ronald Reagan in the 1980s and has been perpetuated by his two Republican successors, Bush I and Bush II. To correct the past and provide for the future, we must not only encourage but force business to provide for their employees, make government, rather than the market, the predominant factor in influencing executive decisions. “The corporate model for the provision of social services, whether for medical programs or retirement, is fatally flawed and in fact broken…it has to be enormously modified with the force of law,” says Mr. Britton. The legislative fist must restore honor to business. “The loyalty factor in corporations today is practically nil,” says Britton, “bottom up, top down.” Obviously, this view is at odds with those of the opinion that business is responsible for itself and for the stockholders, and that people must learn to manage their own affairs.

Personally, I believe that a compromise must be breached between the two sides. I lean predominantly to the school of thought preaching self-reliance and the elimination of fraud, but simultaneously recognize that certain aspects of the programs cannot be cut, at least not now. To put my opinion in real terms, the budget measure noted above would receive my support. It envisions saving more than ten billion dollars over ten years by raising co-payments and deductibles for many of the recipients of Medicaid, and saving an additional six billion from reductions in health benefits (Weisman). Although this would hurt some people, something must be done now. Today has a responsibility not only to today, but also to tomorrow, to our children and grandchildren.

In an ideal situation those perpetrating fraud would be caught and punished, leaving sufficient funds for the people who really need it. Businesses would not need to assume more burdens, but just continue to carry the weight they already do. I am for blind justice, not need based justice.

First and second hand experiences have helped form this belief in me, that the law must be enforced and that business, if they are not themselves perpetrating fraud, are carrying a large enough load in terms of medical services and retirement. For example, in 2005 I became a dishwasher in an Italian restaurant in Plaistow, NH. My work there has introduced me to the abuse of social services, specifically unemployment and welfare fraud. Two of the workers at the restaurant receive unemployment and are paid “under the table.” Although being paid “under the table” is common, it is nevertheless abuse. Those evils that we accept as part of life are the most dangerous and detrimental.

Another experience that helped inform my conviction was a discussion I had with an adult friend about the benefits that businesses already provide to workers in terms of health care and retirement. Although the figures were somewhat hypothetical, they nevertheless helped me understand the issue in terms that are more concrete. The hypothetical went something like this: A single man working as a teacher has 85% of their health care covered. If the total health care cost is $5,000, then the school covers over $4,000 of that. This expense is coupled with social security, an even more expensive program, which the school pays 50% of. If the school was expected to pay 100% of health care and all of social security they would go bankrupt. In the words of Mr. Henaghan, “companies can only be expected to make reasonable contributions.”

Many that are against “cutting” call it “slashing.” The use of hate words in public debate hurts everyone. If people are too sensitive to certain proposals, and react by being defensive and harsh, then progress is a dream. With a large military presence in Afghanistan and a war in Iraq estimated to have cost $247,395,575, 500 so far (“Cost of War”), as well as the ramifications of hurricane Katrina to deal with, a cost likely to be over 80 billion dollars (“Hurricane Central”), the government must look to reduce, reduce, reduce. With war costs remaining at current levels, CBO predicts a deficit for 2007 of $355 billion. Bush has proposed $36 billion in cuts to Medicare over five years, “chiefly by reducing inflationary increases to providers like hospitals and nursing homes (Taylor).” He has also proposed making his tax cuts permanent and borrowing approximately $4.5 trillion over two decades to privatize Social Security (“Importance of Being”). As moves are made to deal with the issue of entitlement programs one must be conscious of the obvious, or in other words simple, reform measures available. We must spend the money on enforcement, not on trying to cover everyone who says they need it.

In the 1930s, John Maynard Keynes, in response to a remark about the importance of balancing the budget, made this now infamous comment: “In the long run we’re all dead.” I have faith that the United States of America will survive these tough times, as they have all others, abandoning the fatalism of Keynes and embracing the promise of the future. With any luck, the two-hundred or so years we have been around, will become two-thousand or so, all of them prosperous. Keynes was right; in the long run we will all be dead. However, he forgets to mention, that our legacy will live on.

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Bibiliography:

Interviews:

Britton, William. Teacher, Social Studies Department
Henaghan, Patrick. Teacher, Foreign Language Department

Works Consulted/Cited:

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3/07/2006

damn you leanord et all

The following is a conversation I had today with my freshman year math teacher. It basically sums up my angst lately:

Mr. Walor: So, we're not doing drama anymore Mr. Gori?

Me: Nope, not this play. I want to go see it though. Right now I'm just trying to hang in there with school. I thought the work was going to slow down, but actually it's picking up.

Mr. Walor: Well, what do ya want? To lay in the pastures all day with the cows?

Me: Uh, yeah...--

Mr. Walor: --Well, that's not the way things work aroud here.

2/27/2006

probably shouldn't be posted right after wordsworth

I lied to her,
I said,
“I’m not upset,
Because now I’m that guy,
Whose right under your nose,
Without you even realizing it.
And that character,
My darling,
Is the best one,
In almost all the movies.”

But I digress,
Thinking back now, to before all this,
Before I met her,
When my loneliness was a mere abstraction,
And even further,
To when I was a little boy,
Perfectly content,
To slide my little bottom over the chestnut church pews,
And drop a dollar bill,
Into the wicket basket.

I say I’m too cool,
Gotten bigger, and bigger and so on.
Gotten self-respect.
But what is that, when your all
Isn’t nearly enough?

1/17/2006

wordsworth

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils,
Beside the lake, beneath the trees
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the Milky Way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee: -
A poet could not but be gay
In such a jocund company:
I gazed -and gazed -but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought.

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills
And dances with the daffodils.

***
That's just a marvelous poem that I just finished writing a paper on. It seemed appropriate to post it.

In other news, I'll be throwing up my senior caption when I finally find the right quote. Additionally, I have been thinking of compiling a list of every CD I have purchased (not burned), so look for that.

"Holla at your boy"

12/31/2005

words about words

The irony over the debate concerning what degree of free press and communication the government should tolerate in this country is that those that champion a short leash do so by expressing their opinions through that entity that they seek to diminish. However, despite the essential weakness of the argument for censorship, both sides of the dispute have influenced my opinion of media, shaping my interpretation of healthy communication. Experience and the act of growing up have fostered a desire to understand and act righteously in the profession of communication. Specifically, to come to terms with what “good” journalism means and whether one principle should overwhelm the rest.

The experiences that have most profoundly nurtured the principle that the press must be “free,” as the name implies, are my history classes. Over the years, my teachers at St. John’s Prep have shown me that in order for America to be, “a city upon a hill,” as John Winthrop had hoped, the transmission of language, whether via the internet or a newspaper, must exist and thrive. In contrast, experiences heightening my awareness of the trials of the outside world have forced me to consider the principle of regulation. In particular, one event, the release of troop positions by Geraldo Rivera, has impressed upon me an appreciation for the necessity of responsibility, especially when national security is concerned. Some might interpret this distinction, in which elements of both sides are important, as a conundrum. Rather, I advocate a degree of balance perpetuated by the individuals with the pen, not officials in Washington.

Many other experiences have led me to select communications as that area to which I desire to dedicate a significant portion of my energy. Besides those that have led me to an extremely basic interpretation of what good journalism is at heart, are those events that have led me to believe that the “good journalism” of which I speak finds itself tragically underrepresented within the world of words and professional interaction. For example, the book, War is a Force that Gives Us Meaning, by war correspondent Chris Hedges, details the reluctance of journalists to engage their subjects and actively pursue truth, their acceptance of the drivel that officials present to them rather than a conviction that they must dig deeper. A sense of social responsibility, fostered by public service and religious faith, motivates me to become one of those people that will replace these faux communicators of which Hedges speaks and fill the “proper” journalism void. __________ seems to me the perfect place to develop and refocus, if the exceptional teaching staff deems it necessary, my drive so that I will be prepared to do so. The School of Communications website maintains that it is, “dedicated to the proposition that the free flow of ideas and accurate information is vital to the development and improvement of democratic societies.” I wholeheartedly agree with this sentiment and look forward to the practical preparation _________ will provide me with during my tenure.